My testimony on the attonement. Easter 2016

It's been hard being away from my family and friends back at home today.

But this Easter Sunday in general I am so greatful for the savior and his atonement. The ward we went to has to be my favorite one so far, it was full of just super sweet and funny people.

The bishop came up and introduced himself to me and my mom. He asked why I was here, so I told him " that Im here for the mayo clinic, and that there not finding answers so who knows how long I'll be here" and he just took my hand, and Said. " we will be your family while you are here. You need anything, you call me. You are not going through this alone. Tears stung my eyes as he said that. Because of the saviors atonement, that he willingly did, we will not go through life alone. It's like what Jeffery R. Holland " because Jesus walked such a long, lonely path utterly alone, we do not have to do so."

And as this same bishop talked in church, it hit me, that the savior had felt his pains, his fears, anger and frustration, and he had done the same for everyone in that room. And for everyone on this earth no matter what walk of life they have came from. Since Friday I have felt the most hopeless than I ever had in my life, some moments I have felt that I could literally not go on. And he has felt that pain. He has felt the pain my illness, and every other trail I have experienced. and he did it willingly. So he personally knew how to help me, so that no matter what I faced I knew I would not face it alone. I know that my Savior lives. Jesus is my redeemer, my eldest brother, my savior and I am so eternally greatful for him. I'm so incredibly greatful for his willingness to preform and act that would cause so much pain that I can't even fathom it. I'm so greatful he did that because he loves us, all of us, more than words can describe. I know that because of him I can get through this giant trial of health, and the mayo clinic not finding answers; and any other trial that comes my way. I know that Because of him none of us are ever alone.

And I share this testimony . my knowledge faith and belief with you. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

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