Smile Magee Poetry, Dear Dr,

Dear Dr, whoever you may be

When I come into your office, how do you see me?
Just a patient, a name on a screen, Another body to get in and out of your office, so you can do your thing?

Would you be the one to look at me, nod your head at the right moments. scribble notes, as I tell you my story.
But then with no answers of a diagnosis coming to your brain, would you o so intelligently exclaim.
"Nothing is deadly wrong, that I can see, your broken pieces can't be fixed by me! Your happy, and sick, this I cannot explain.
So I guess you must be insane! "

Dear Dr, Whoever you may be, did you take the time to really notice me? I'm sick and I'm scared, trying to be as brave as I can be. At the age of 20 an unknown illness is attacking me. I smile because I'm trying to make the best out of what I've been given. But Dear Dr. I didn't come to you for fun, I came to you because I want to keep on living.

Dear Dr., remember with every patient there is always more than you see.
There are millions out there who are just like me.
We are more than just a name on a screen.
We are human just like you, we have families, hopes; fears, and dreams
Next time we are in your exam room chair.
Show us compassion, show us that some part of you cares.

Sincerely:
Smile Magee

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